Inspired by this brilliant, moving, post from my wonderful web designer, Taughnee Stone:
Showing up for life is a different strategy than I’ve had for a very long time, and the results so far have been incredible. Funny thing is? By letting go of my dreams a little, and becoming more awake to life in this moment, I have begun the process of becoming “unstuck” and I’m moving toward those dreams. They are now something I feel entirely confident I will achieve and I don’t put off the things I need to do to achieve them until tomorrow, I do what I can today. And if they don’t come true that’s okay too, because I’m still alive and that’s all I need to be.
I understand this. For years, until recently, I had begun to feel as though I was existing…but not really living. I didn’t feel like that all the time, but the sensation grew strong enough that I finally decided I needed to make a change — a real, substantial, change. I didn’t know how, exactly, to do that…just that I was working all the time, writing…and even though I loved my job, that wasn’t enough anymore.
So I took a vacation to Iceland.
I know, a vacation doesn’t sound like a big deal, but you have to understand that I hadn’t given myself permission to take a vacation. Ever. Not since selling my first book. Sure, I go to China a couple times a year, but I’m still working on those trips. Conventions aren’t a vacation, either.
Iceland was a vacation. With volcanoes and knitting, good food, (adorable) lambs. And it’s funny, but just giving myself permission to relax a little, and chill out…pulled me from the mire. I began to find myself unstuck. I can’t explain what that feels like, exactly. But as the year has progressed, from spring to summer to fall (we’re getting close to winter, wow), more changes and opportunities have fallen into my life, and I can’t help but think that one choice — that decision to start living a little, giving myself permission to relax into life — opened up the floodgates of change.
Or maybe the change was coming anyway, but I was in a more receptive state of mind.
Whatever. I’m happy.